Hormones are just about the worst excuses of most females.  Where guys can trust testosterone for their physical ‘manliness’, libido, and mental/physical energy, women can rely on estrogen for their ‘figure’ and menstrual cycle.

Of course, what makes the female hormone a double-edged sword is the fact that a female’s estrogen level is almost never constant, it just constantly goes through highs and lows every month. Unfortunately, a low estrogen level is correlated with significant mood lowering. In addition to this, some women suffer from mild to serious depression because of low estrogen levels. Another lesser known fact is that the tendency for obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) also increases with lowered estrogen levels.

I’ve always been aware of my body and sometimes I’m even aware when I’m having premenstrual crankiness and many women like me blame the hormones for them. When I gave birth to Mateo, I experienced the usual postpartum ‘baby blues’ that often comes with changes in hormone levels after pregnancy. It was a good thing that I was often distracted with taking care of a newborn infant to bother too much with the blues.

Imagine my trepidation when my doctor told me to expect the same thing after my D&C. I know it will be more difficult because I won’t have a baby to distract me with but a baby to mourn over. With the intensity that my premenstrual crankiness gets sometimes, I knew that it’s not going to be pretty.

It has been sixteen days after my D&C and today is the first tantrum-free day. I’m surprised my husband hasn’t turned on me yet or left me altogether, haha. It’s embarrassing to admit that  I’ve been a bitch most of the time since my D&C. Of course, it doesn’t help that all the bitchiness often comes flooding out when we’re home because I try to keep myself in check when I’m somewhere else. I guess I’m just lucky I married a great guy and I have a great kid, both of whom still love me to bits hormones or no hormones.